I don’t really know where to start or where I’m going with this post. A few months ago my head was all over the place, I thought I could trust a lot of people, I got myself into really bad habbits and lost a lot of people close to me on the way. Christmas night/boxing day my life changed and I didn’t even realise it yet. Major mess still, but I had someone by me that whole week who actually cared? Who wanted to help me and who liked me for who I am. I knew we was the same kind of people from that first night at Dans, I knew we’d shared the same past with ourselfs and previous relationships, I knew what we both wanted was the same thing. I watched a programme on TV tonight and I saw us on it, I saw the girl had the same issues and the boy trying as hard as he could to help her. That programme was a slap in the face and made me realise how much I appeciate and adore him. For a couple who haven’t been together THAT long, we have deffinatly been through some shit some married couples don’t even get and we’re dealing with the biggest one yet. I haven’t been that much of a girlfriend to him but after this is sorted I vow to be the best I can be. I owe him everything and most of all I owe him a thank you. I would not even like to imagine the sort mess I’d be now.
I cannot wait to spend more time with him, going to all these festivals together, having the summer to do whatever the fuck we want, my visits to him up in uni, getting smashed, all the bed and movie dosses, the suprises I will give him, ps3 times, going on holiday, boring him with my constant fashion talk and just acting like complete spacks cause we are that comfatable with each other. “I had sworn to myself that I’m content with loneliness, because none of it was ever worth the risk, well you are the only exception.”